I went to the grocery store yesterday with wet hair....
That one statement should be enough to shock me into doing something with myself, but it hasn't! 8+ years ago, I wouldn't have even walked out my front door to get the paper with wet hair or no makeup on. Now, it seems like I don't have the motivation to do anything with myself. Have I gotten myself into a rut? I stay at home all day with the kids and people other than them and my husband rarely see me. I feel a bit like "if no one cares what I look like, why should I care myself?" I do take a shower everyday, brush my teeth, and I put on mascara and eyeliner. But most of the time, I can't see sitting under the blow dryer for 10 minutes to make my hair straight, or doing all of my makeup just for my kids. Blow drying my hair just damages it, and why would I do that if it doesn't make a difference? And my makeup will last so much longer if I don't put it on to impress no one.
That got me thinking about when I used to watch TLC's "What Not to Wear". That was years ago, and I always looked at what the women were wearing thinking "Why would you let yourself go like that?!" Everyone had their own reasons for it, but I never understood it until now.
I feel really bad for my husband, though he wouldn't ever say anything about it. He always says he likes me best in my little black workout shorts or yoga pants and my hair in a pony tail. He doesn't ever say "Are you going to wear that out?" - because that is more of a girl thing to say I guess. But I worry that I am not enough of the girl that I used to be to hold his interest.
We really don't ever go anywhere that I would need to dress up. We spend so much time with the boys or at the gym that I have just gotten used to not doing anything with myself. If the first place I leave the house to go to during the day is the gym, then why shouldn't I just put on my gym clothes first thing in the morning? If my hair is just going to be in a pony tail, then why should I do anything with my hair earlier in the day?
Have you ever gotten yourself into a rut like that? I am not sure what to do about it, if I should do anything.
Any thoughts?
I'm in the same rut. I can't remember the last time I put on makeup and it's too hot to blow dry my hair. 10 years ago, I cringed when I saw shorts or pants with elastic waistbands. Now I'm like "Yes!" when I see those. I never tuck in my shirts anyway. Might as well be comfortable.
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