personal randomness

The closer the time gets to the Tough Mudder, the more the opinions are coming out.  My 4 year old told me while looking at pictures from the Dallas TM "I am NOT letting you do that mommy."  I know that doing it sounds crazy, and my family doesn't want me to get hurt doing it.  I am going to say my piece about why I have decided to do some crazy things lately.  I don't want to look back at my life later on and say that I didn't really LIVE!  I was too afraid to hurt myself to do anything real.  After my back surgery, my surgeon scared me into thinking that I had to be careful with myself the rest of my life.  I have bad discs, and I have spinal stenosis, which is where the inside of your spinal column shrinks.  The odds that I will eventually have to have another surgery are much higher now.  Then, to have my neurologist tell me that I am having early symptoms of MS - HOLY CRAP!  I was 26 years old feeling like I was told to spend my life in a bubble.  Both my surgeon and neurologist told me that the best way to avoid pain and symptoms was to stay active and keep my weight down.  Nerves conduct better when they don't have fat to go through, and having a strong core will keep my spine in place.  Having those potential problems in my mind really hit me in the last couple of years.  I reached 30 years old and thought "I may not have that long to do the things I want, so I need to get out there!!!".   I don't want to look back and wish I would have done something.  I want to do it now.  So, now I am doing things that people might think are strange.  I wanted to do Cupid's Undie Run, but due to an injury it just wasn't possible this year.  I hope to next year though, and hopefully I will find someone to do it with me.  So this year, I am running the Bolder Boulder, participating in the Tough Mudder, and running a half marathon.  And after all is said and done, I am going to have my Orange Headband charm bracelet tattoo with charm tattoos from those things I accomplish.  Then, if I end up with MS or other back issues that limit me, I can look back and say "But look what I accomplished in my life!" 
So, there is a little something personal about me and why I may seem crazy to some people.  After catching up with a friend this weekend who has been struggling with a disease that has left her unable to do everyday things, I am going to do these races in honor of her.  She is inspirational in how she is fighting to begin a new way of life and learn to do things a different way.  She is a wonderful mom and I hope for some relief of her pain so that she can get back to being the wife, mom, and woman that she deserves to be.